Today marks 38 weeks of pregnancy. 38 weeks of carrying this new life inside me…and it has just flown by. Seriously – where did 9 months of my life go??
Now that we’re down to the wire, the last few weeks are just dragging by. As much as I want her here though, I’m trying to be thankful for it. These are the last few weeks I will get before Tim and I welcome our daughter into the world and our lives change forever. So instead of trying to rush it, I’m making a dedicated attempt to enjoy every last minute we have together before she gets here – despite the fact that everything is uncomfortable.
I’ve been extremely blessed to have a fairly easy pregnancy so far. All my tests were good, I had relatively few of the pregnancy discomforts most women deal with, and I’ve been blessed with a great support system. Up till this point, my pregnancy has been what most would consider “easy”. I guess I took that for granted because these last few weeks its like everything hit me at once. I haven’t been able to sleep well, so I’m tired all the time. I’m starting to feel a lot more of the pregnancy discomforts, and my stress level is probably higher now than it was when we first found out I was pregnant!
My high stress level is due to a lot of factors, one of which is that my GBS (group B strep) test came back positive. With me having had both strep and mono in the past, I’m not surprised that my body has the bacteria – it was just not something I had thought of. This is not necessarily a huge deal – its just the fact that it was something unexpected and I didn’t feel prepared to cope with the change in my plan (ha). I have been on a very strict diet for the past 3 weeks to begin the process of killing off the mono and epstein barr viruses in my body. I’ve been relying heavily on my mother (who is a ND, CNHP, D.PSc. and Board Certified Doctor of Natural Medicine,) for her research and guidance on this topic, since it’s not something I know much about. Now that I know more about these viruses, I’m learning that my diet is pretty much the only way to rid my body of them. This means that I may have to be on this diet for a year…or longer. Any of you who are “healthy eaters” know what it’s like – it’s hard to be on a strict diet today.
To clarify: This diet is not for weight, it is for health. I am not decreasing caloric intake by any means and my baby and I are getting far more nutrition now than we were prior to eating this way. However – it has indeed been hard to adjust to this diet over the past three weeks and I am hoping that it will get easier with time. Once she is born I will be able to be a little more flexible, but if I want to rid my body of the viruses and help her do so as well (since she probably already has them from me), I will have to get used to eating this way for the foreseeable future. (If you want to know more about these viruses or the diet I’m on, send me a message through the contact me tab!) When my mom first told me about all of this I was very emotional. It’s just not something you want to find out just 2 weeks before you’re supposed to give birth. Not to mention the destruction of the picture perfect birth I had in my head after I learned I will probably need to be on an antibiotic IV during my labor. It’s not really a big deal, just another thing I wasn’t expecting. To turn this in a positive light, all I have to do is remind myself that it’s all helping me to be more flexible and have a more realistic expectation for my labor and delivery.
Our journey of paying for the pregnancy and delivery has also been a long one. After two attempts at applying for Medicaid, I was finally denied just 2 weeks ago (neither Tim or I are under health insurance at the moment). It’s been a long road of dealing with the insurance dropping me and switching providers (from the hospital to the birth center). Finding out after everything we’d been through that we still have to pay out of pocket was just demoralizing. I was definitely more than a little emotional when I got the denial paperwork, but I realize we still have SO much to be thankful for. The price difference between the birth center and the hospital is huge. Not only that, but the birth center does a sliding scale based on your income and we get a decent discount on the total price just because of that. The positive side of this? It’s something we can handle. The Lord has provided, despite everything.
So many changes have happened over this last month that I wasn’t prepared for…but hey, life is about being flexible and adjusting to the unexpected, right? Besides – who can tell the future? Not me. I’m still learning every day to trust God and have faith that His plan for me is better than anything I can imagine. While these things have really made the last few weeks hard, I’m making a conscious effort to remain positive about my birth and do the best I can to stay healthy for myself and my baby. It’s times like these that my life verse comes back to me – “Rejoice in hope, endure in suffering, persist in prayer” (Romans 12:12). I am confident in the fact that no matter what these changes bring and no matter what it may initially seem like, God has my best interest at heart and I can have peace in that.
Keep your head up,