I’m not going to assume anyone noticed, but it’s been a little quiet here on the blog for the past week or so. In fact, I’m not even entirely sure of the day I last posted…but I’m back – and here to explain my absence!
Life is pretty crazy, I think everyone can agree on that. I decided I needed a little time off from the blog just to focus on my own life. I have a lot of things going on at the moment and felt like I needed to devote more time to my other priorities. So for those that are wondering, here’s what I’ve been up to.
School: I was absolutely swamped with assignments and final exams for college, as this past week was the last week of classes for the semester. I felt more than overwhelmed and definitely needed to buckle down and focus over this last week so that I can uphold the grades I’ve worked so hard for. The semester is finally over! And while I’m not graduating this semester (thanks to transferring schools/degrees), I’m beyond relieved to be done for the time being. This last week was rough, but I finished strong! I should be finishing this semester with a 3.9 GPA.
Birthing/labor research: As I get closer to baby’s due date, I’ve been feeling so unprepared for what’s about to happen. I found that I was letting some fear creep in and decided I need to change that. I’ve been taking some time each day/ evening to do some research on labor and practice what I can to prepare me for the big day! (24 days away…what.) Tim has been helpful in reminding me that these fears are not coming from me or from God and to pray for God to cast them out (“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind” – 2 Tim. 1:7, KJV). Our bodies were made to do this and our minds are capable of so much more than we think!
Family: Pretty much any of you who are college kids (or who have kids in college) know that this time of year is graduation time! My brother graduated from Grove City College over the weekend and was able to come down and see me. I was pretty upset I couldn’t be there to celebrate his graduation, since it’s over a 5 hour drive, but I’m so glad I was able to see him at all. It’s been a little while since I’ve seen either him or my dad actually, so it was great that he and my parents could visit this weekend.
I’ve also been really feeling the need to spend as much time with Tim as I can, seeing as in just 24 days we will no longer be a couple – but a family of 3! I’m so excited, yet at the same time my heart still breaks a little to think of losing the precious alone time I get with my husband. So part of the reason I’ve been off the blog for a bit has been to spend more time with him. Now that the weather’s getting nicer, we’re planning on taking walks every evening that we can. I look forward to enjoying our last few weeks together as a “couple without kids”.
Other responsibilities: Though this is one section, its probably the real reason I put the blog on the back burner for a few days. That’s because we all know its the combination of things that usually overwhelm us. It’s just been a little too much for me to think about recently and I didn’t want to post something that wasn’t genuine or heartfelt. These “other responsibilities” have included dentist visits, birthing classes (or trying to…had to reschedule 3 times), prenatal appointments, work, cooking, prepping the room for baby, looking up a pediatrician, looking for health insurance for the three of us, making calls regarding payments for the prenatal appointments, birth, and postnatal appointments, and still trying to get enough sleep to function the next day. Not to mention the fact that this past week has been probably the hardest work week I’ve seen my husband go through. Several of the days that I was off work, I even went with him and helped him however I could (usually just taking numbers down). Last year he broke his foot 6 weeks before our wedding and I went to work with him every day. Since I was basically a coworker for him during that time, I know a lot about what he does and how to do certain parts of it.
The last thing I’m gonna say is this: It’ll probably happen again. Taking a break from the pressures of having to think up a blog post or take good photos for my blog/instagram has been essential to my well-being and I’ll probably do it again every once in a while. I would encourage this to anyone who’s also a blogger/instagrammer. If you’re feeling overwhelmed – take a step back. You can always pick up where you left off and if your readers truly care about you and enjoy your content – they won’t care! Your mental/physical health and emotional well being is always more important – especially if you’re also dealing with pregnancy/the postpartum period/a newborn/ or really any other thing that puts extra stress on your mind and body. Listen to your body, give it a break, and it will thank you!
Thanks for the patience,