So for those who don’t know, my pre-pregnancy weight was around 112-115 lbs. Last time I was weighed at a pre-natal appointment (last Friday) I was 130 lbs. This was kind of shocking for me to see, since that’s the most I’ve weighed in my entire life! I know that its still a completely healthy weight (and my weight gain is on track for what they recommend during pregnancy), it just surprised me to see the number. I’m only around 5’3 and built small, so I’ve been accustomed to being a small person my whole life. I’ve remained fairly active throughout my pregnancy so far, but it is becoming harder and harder to keep active and eat healthy. We’re getting down to the wire (8 weeks left!) so I’ve been busy with a lot of planning and haven’t made it to the gym as often as I did during the second trimester and beginning of the third. I’m lucky now if I make it to the gym once or twice a week, although I try to always do at least a few squats before bed. If I do make it to the gym, I’m generally there for about an hour. I do 15-20 minutes of fast walking on the treadmill, 15-20 minutes on the elliptical, and spend the rest of the time doing body-weight exercises and light weights.
Another thing that has changed pretty drastically is my level of strength. I consistently lifted weights before I was pregnant and could leg press several times my body weight. Since hitting the third trimester, I’ve noticed that despite the little bit of weight lifting I’ve done throughout the pregnancy, I’ve lost a lot of my former strength. I’m not used to having to coddle my body so much and had to be humbled twice before I realized I needed to change something. By humbled, I mean that I fell twice already since being pregnant…and both were within the last 2 weeks. Nothing serious, thankfully, and no impacts to my belly, but it was enough to put me in my place and remind me to take it easy on myself. I never realized how careful I would have to be just to keep myself from injury. Of course it doesn’t help that I was clumsy before I was pregnant, but I can see that it’s magnified because of my body’s lack of muscular strength.
The second time I fell was down the last few stairs into the basement (where our bedroom currently is). It was late at night and my senses were dulled just enough that I couldn’t catch myself. My husband was coming down the stairs behind me but wasn’t able to catch me in time. I got a bump on the head, scraped ankle, and sprained finger, but it could have been a lot worse. I just remember sitting on the floor crying because I felt like I had put my baby at risk by not being careful enough. After my husband comforted me and got me some ice, I realized that although it wasn’t my fault that I fell, something did need to change. Since then I’ve become a lot more careful about everything; especially stairs. Maybe I’m just stubborn and like to think that my body can handle anything without me changing the way I do things…but that’s just not realistic for anyone.
Yes, despite other people telling me I look great or that they don’t even notice much of a change between pre-pregnancy and now (besides the baby bump of course), I still get insecure. I notice the weight gain. I notice my muscles atrophying. I notice my endurance and strength diminishing. I notice the stretch marks and cellulite – yea, I have them too. I just have to remind myself that my body is doing something absolutely amazing. I’ll just have to get over my vain self and choose to be amazed at the miracle that’s happening because of these changes in my body.
A lot of people will say that I’m still tiny, that I shouldn’t be worried, or even that I need to gain more weight (I’ve heard it all). I believe that you should do your very best to stay fit and healthy throughout your pregnancy and leave worry out of the equation. Everyone starts their pregnancy at a different place & ends it at a different place. This pregnancy has taught me a lot about my body and how it adapts to these kind of major changes. Every woman is amazing, every body has the capability to do amazing things if you take care of it. So instead of focusing on my size in relation to other women or to where I want to be, I’m focusing on staying as healthy as I can for myself and my baby and with the end goal of birthing a beautiful, healthy baby. That’s the number one thing I can recommend to any of you in the same boat. It’s about focusing on your own journey of strength and fitness and taking it one step at a time!
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In celebration of the journey,